the yapper chronicles | 4
a series of curated lists, musings, and monthly round ups. stay and yap a while!
#4
happy birthday month to me!! and all may babies! happy saturn return my fellow saturn in aries folks!! happy AAPI heritage month!! what a whirlwind of month!! my incredible boyfriend spent the month spoiling me (will get into more later during the “faves” section) and i ended the month in ITALY! literally landed in florence on may 31 - aka my bday and treated myself to some italian leather and a delicious dinner.
it’s been a while. my time and energy have been focused on other creative passions this month, like drawing, designing, and teaching myself the adobe creative suite. although this has slowed down a bit, writing is still something i continue to do, just not pressuring myself to produce and publish just for the sake of it. i have missed being on substack though and consuming media in a bit slower form - so this was a good reminder to check back in and enjoy it.
this month i’ve been working out really consistently and i’ve been feeling great. i love feeling and being strong. i’ve been getting into a new rhythm in my current reality that balances applying to jobs and making steps to pursue my passion of design, accepting that this won’t happen overnight but ultimately working to make it my reality. as i prepared for and began my saturn return, i turned inward to reflect on what i want my life to look like, who i want to be, etc.
i’ve once again updated my journaling system and it’s been working out really well. i have retired, for the time being, my big moleskin planner and have opted for a pocket sized notebook to write down my to-do lists paired with my hobonichi weeks for daily tracking of various things. a lot less pressure and suits me currently.
faves from may
ninja juicer
this was one of my gifts from my boyfriend and omg!! it has become a staple in my daily life. i love it so much. i seriously make freshly squeezed orange juice every.single.day. i genuinely get excited thinking about it the night before. sorry not sorry, i am now an orange juice snob and will no longer consume juice that is not freshly squeezed lol. its SO GOOD
spin class
another gift was a membership to a local spin studio. although it’s heating up in the desert, and i already start sweating like the moment i step outside, i have been really loving getting my sweat on. it’s been a way to keep me active, get my out of the apartment, and get my endorphins running in the morning. i just feel so good after each class - ready to take on the world!
music
a very slow moving passion project of mine is curating playlists for all my different vibes and moods, ranging from brain dump playlists to super niche. i have always loved music but i’ve been listening with a different kind of intention this month which i’ve been really enjoying
thoughts and musings
i am a creative. full stop. no more worrying about the naysayers or talking myself out if it. no more waiting for the right moment or any other qualifier. no more imposter syndrome. no more waiting for others to believe i am or give me that validation. the call to create has also been inside of me, and i’ve indulged to various extents in the past, but have ultimately always talked myself out of it and pushed it down - instead pursuing things that were “more practical” or “more stable”. i don’t want to settle anymore though. i know that i can pave my own way. i’m not sure how yet or what it will ultimately look like, but i know if i don’t listen, the call will continue to haunt me and i don’t want to dream about what-ifs.
here’s to june, the summer, and following our passions!
Ren